Philippians 2:21
Recently I have been struggling with the concept of purpose, what can I do or should be doing to live a life of purpose. My whole world has been shaken up and thrown down, as if God is playing dice with the world. Currently, we are in the midst of the COVID-19 lockdown. I went from being employed 38+ hours per week to losing my job over night to being asked to work 3 hours a week- I have an hour travel each way! Combine this with doing one of the most inspiring courses I have ever completed, RZIM Core Module. This completely rewrote my ideas of what is and isn’t acceptable for a woman to do with regards to study and teaching of the bible. So now I have to reconcile dreams of old with new dreams and decide which way I want to direct my life.
In light of all of this, I came across Philippians 2:21 which asks are we following after our own interests or the interests of Jesus Christ and this is my musing on it all.
Am I seeking after my own interests or am I seeking those of Jesus Christ? We are to be genuinely concerned by those around us and by those in the church globally, particularly those He brings across our paths (vs 20). Pouring out our lives as a drink offering (vs 17) isn’t easy, comfortable, or glamourous. It is the daily sacrifice, the daily act of laying down our desires and instead, picking up our precious Lord’s desires and carrying them instead. Sometimes these desires make sense, we can understand them (at least in part) and that even tho they might be hard to carry out, this makes them bearable, ‘easy’ even. It is when those desires go against every fibre of my own sinful being, my own flesh, and we cannot see the purpose, that’s when the saints shine through. Those who continue even when they are overwhelmed and can’t see, still trust, sit tight and continue for Him.
Musings by Tee 